[Thespiritexpress] Poem read

[Jima Abbott]

FROM CARLIE

Last month Taylor shared a writing she did about a healing journey and it reminded me of a drumming journey I had several years ago about healing the fear, anger and wrong doings I want to heal within me.   After reviewing my writing this is the version I shared this week on Tuesday.

DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE

I lay on the padded flour in the Yurt listening to the drum beat that will pull me down my rabbit hole and into the center of the earth.

There is a reluctance in my mind to dive into the unknown.

Plummeting down the dark tunnel I am hurled to the dirt floor and am met by Crow who pecks at my eyes.

Bear comes to me and begins to claw and shred the skin from my body; into the muscle and organs.

Blood and body fluids leave a stain on the virgin snow beneath me.

As Bear devours my organs she reaches for my heart and tucks it gingerly into her pocket of fur.

She takes me to her winter cave which is dimly lit by the fire under the cauldron in the center of the room.

I can see black writing etched into my bones; my numerous fears, judgements and transgressions I so dearly want to heal inside me.

There is a large pink eraser beside me and I begin to try and rub away each of the writings.

Bear asks me, “What are you doing?"

“I am trying to erase my fears, my angers, my judgements; to become pure and clean,”

She says you can erase each wound individually, but it will take a long time

or you can jump into this vat of lye and dissolve your bones and all the unsettling emotions and experiences that they hold.

As I stand on the lip of the large kettle looking down at the caustic  liquid, I must now make a choice.

Will I surrender to the unknown, to be ridden of that which burdens me.

I turn to Bear and ask “But what about my heart?"

She says, “I will keep it safe for you.  Your heart is pure and loving.

Your heart is safe with me.

Your bones will dissolve, but remember that your heart is pure.

You need to trust yourself.

Remember, trust yourself, 

you are Love."