[Thespiritexpress] Poem Read at last "Pathwork"

[sabell at mcn.org]

Dear Toni,
I love this poem!!! I remember the first time I heard it and was so
blown away. It's one of my favorites of yours. Your poetry is deep
and a voice for all women! You are so very talented.
Thank you for sharing this!!
much love,
Shawn


On 2023-07-27 4:44 pm, Toni Bernbaum via Thespiritexpress wrote:
>> This is dedicated to all of us who are serious about shadow
>> work…….its challenges and ultimate rewards……with
>> love….Toni
>> 
>> Retrieval
>> 
>> I want it all back.
>> 
>> Every time I hung my head,
>> 
>> every word held on my tongue,
>> 
>> every lie I’ve told,
>> 
>> every piece of me I bought or sold,
>> 
>> thinking it would get me love.
>> 
>> I want it back.
>> 
>> The beg-your-pardons,
>> 
>> the I-didn’t-mean-tos,
>> 
>> the bowing out backwards,
>> 
>> the pleading, performing, and scheming.
>> 
>> The seducing and hiding.
>> 
>> The waiting.
>> 
>> The pretending to be what I’ve never been
>> 
>> with a righteous, condescending
>> 
>> “I’m above that” grin.
>> 
>> Give it to me.
>> 
>> The key to unshackle my shame,
>> 
>> my anger and blame.
>> 
>> I want to own it, wear it, and _not_ have to explain.
>> 
>> 
>> 
>> I want the truth to embrace
>> 
>> As I take back the pain.
>> 
>> I want to conjure-up all my fears in a potion,
>> 
>> I want to drink it and swallow all my emotions.
>> 
>> I want to own the devil in me  -   take back my power - get myself
>> free-
>> 
>> I want the whole of me strutting
>> 
>> when I walk down the street
>> 
>> I want my dark, down, dirty self back,
>> 
>> Its black magic wings
>> 
>> arched at my shoulders,
>> 
>> then aimed like a warrior’s arrow,
>> 
>> I’m going to bend the bow of my body
>> 
>> so far back that nothing but its original target
>> 
>> is clear, and then, Lord Mama,
>> 
>> I’m gonna let go.
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