[Thespiritexpress] Equinox musings.....

[roz at mcn.org]

> Dear Toni
I am so moved and touched by your heartfelt expression of wisdom that is
so profound and meaningful. There is so much there to comment on I don't
know where to begin, except to say that you are so right, Love is the
answer and we need to find the blocks within ourselves so we can express
the light and Love that we really are in this very dark and scary time.
And yes to the balancing of dark forces with the real light of our true
nature. And to find our creative expression in ourselves, be it music,
art, writing, and whatever else comes. To face the fear within like facing
a monster in a scary dream sounds just right to me.

Thank you so much for sharing your deep expression. I am so grateful that
you and Ron have created this wonderful community that we can connect with
during this difficult time. We are so blessed to be able to have each
other now.

Much love to you and to all
 Roz


Dearest Spirit House Community,
>
> I write to you on the eve of the Autumn Equinox, on the heels of
> facilitating a very moving memorial gathering for Christie Holiday on zoom
> this morning.  I am open. Cracked open. Feeling a depth of vulnerability
> in the realization of my own mortality as I identify with this body, and
> also feeling deeply empowered by
> the infinite love and connection I felt today, that I know I am, as we are
> joined together, in this case, to honor the life of our beloved Christie.
> Thank you everyone who took part.
>
> Today is a powerful day. (and isn’t everyday, afterall?) This being the
> International Day of Peace. there are celebrations going on all over the
> planet.   I am feeling a gravity of peace and acceptance more than my
> usual sense of it, even as i am equally aware of how much resistance there
> has been within me at times, to “what is.” And isn’t this a time of
> paradox, of the tension of opposites? Aren’t we ever more aware now,  of
> the dark and the light and the contradictions within and without?
>
> At this onset of the next seasonal transition, I greet the Autumn Equinox
> honoring a day balanced with equal darkness and light. This is the first
> time in 13 years we are not celebrating this occasion in Spirit House.
> And so, instead,  I invite you all to hear the call of this seasons
> ritual….to let go…. fall into the power of fall…. right in this moment.
>
> Fall into the groundlessness of this very precarious time where there is
> so much fear and doom and gloom….so much out of our control.
>
> It’s more important than ever to be able to surrender and let go….and
> trust. See where we land. See what holds us, even as we fall. We look
> within for how to do that.  Autumn resides in the west on the medicine
> wheel, where first we have the courage to look within to assess ourselves
> and see where grasping or holding on to something could actually be
> causing us or some one else, suffering.  In taking the journey of self
> examination we have the opportunity to own ourselves more fully,  pull in
> our shadow projections based on believing ourselves to be separate, and
> enter into that “in between place” where we surrender old beliefs, habits,
> identities or conditioning in order to release ourselves into more peace,
> love and happiness.  In the west we realize what is in the way,  IS the
> way.  We cannot stop what is dying but we can honor ourselves in the
> activity of willing surrender to a greater process.
>
> The judgements, the regrets, the playing too small, the things unforgiven,
> old identities that no longer serve…..can I let them go?  Can we honor the
> necessity of this process that is here to liberate and purify us?
> Ultimately, and literally, we ARE entering a darker time.  We can’t change
> that. But we can respond to this cycle of change in a multitude of ways.
> What way will you choose?
>
> From where I sit,  we are now, in what could also be seen as the autumn of
> our human evolution.There is so much happening that is bringing darkness
> to everyone on this planet. In the cosmos, the astrologers are forecasting
> quite a bit of upheaval in the next few months.  In the collective we are
> experiencing grave unrest. At the personal level we are dealing with
> multiple losses of every kind….everything is so clearly affecting and
> connected with everything else. At last, this truth is more obvious than
> ever. And that is a good thing.
>
> But as we watch our liberties being threatened, seeing changes happening
> so fast, many of us are feeling ourselves being pulled into a vortex of
> futility, fear and helplessness. It’s a scary time.  This season is
> associated with death, witches, bats, spiders and the devil. Halloween,
> afterall. But now especially,  there is very little place to look outside
> of ourselves that is not fearful.  To stay in balance, we must find that
> within each one of us, that is peaceful no matter what is happening.  But
> how do we do that?  How do we face the boogie man who is in the way?
> Well…..dress up in the character inside you that scares you the
> most……become one with it……or in transformational terms, accept it, face
> it. Notice what your reaction to your fear creates for YOU…….bring it
> close and personal, own it and ultimately,  look deeper……see it for what
> it is. Let go of the power you’ve given it. This is the work of the west.
>
> This is also an amazing and awesome time associated with abundance and
> gratitude, to honor our families……and give thanks for the endless flow of
> love and inner light that is always available within us to share.
>
> So the question of this season becomes……how DO we stay in balance?
> Especially now, when what we had depended on is untrustworthy. When death
> is defined as a hug away. When standing up for equality and justice
> becomes life threatening. What are we doing to stay in balance?
>
> Herein lies our sovereignty, our strength, our abitlity to make conscious
> choices.  We can tap the courage it takes to be steady like the trunk of a
> tree even as the winds of change are blowing off our leaves and breaking
> our branches. How can we be strong and flexiblebe like the bamboo. First
> we can root, even deeper, into the ground of our Being. Look within.  Its
> in there. We can be like mycellium in the underground network of the
> invisible realm, joining, nurturing, communicating and supporting each
> other with our loving vibrations, intentions and extensions. Yes.  Look
> within. The answers are there.
>
>  I am feeling very strongly, and many people agree,  that each of us here
> now, at this time,  is here for a very important reason. We each have a
> part to play, a unque gift to offer as well as answers to give and share.
> Why now?  Because it is only in shining our brightest love light can we
> bring balance to the impending dark.
>
> I want to use this format so each of us can offer something in some way of
> joining in our ability to stay in balance now, and in the coming months.
>
> We know that love is the answer……and yet…..the imperative now,  more than
> ever, is to discover what are those roadblocks and obstacles to love’s
> presence right inside my own heart? Where am I being seduced by the media
> or any person or any situation to believe my source of peace and happiness
> comes from events outside of myself? Where have I forgotten the truth of
> who I am? When did I stop taking responsibility for the energy system I am
> generating into the “field?” Where am I pretending NOT to be the powerful
> essence of love I AM?
>
> This can no longer be something I am reading about and discussing as
> “possible"….or something we think is “out there” that others are doing.
> This is an amazing community. Having the privilege of knowing many of you
> intimately I can say, without a doubt, each of you has a gift.  Where is
> your expression of love finding a home within you, everyday? How are you
> lighting your own way on your path of truth and integrity.
>
> Where is your song? Where is your poem, your painting, your dance?
> What I am suggesting,  is a challenge to REALLY look within this season.
> Find the brightest light you can shine. Now that we are going into the
> darker time, everyone is needed.   It takes courage to let go of what
> might be in the way of shining that light… but what else can we do? How
> else will we keep the balance?
>
> So thank you for reading this far. I had no idea when I started writing
> where I was going but as a writer its good to trust that and just
> surrender, extend this
>  invitation to look within as I looked within my heart this morning during
> Christie’s memorial service and saw something
> inspired by sharing our hearts together. So here is my heart share.
>
> Whatever breaks you open this season, bless it. Honor whatever is dying or
> needing to break, to bring more light, more love, more balance.
>
> Happy Equinox.
> Blessings  on this deepening and darkening part of the journey.  May we
> look within, find ourselves opened with grace,  and be released.
>
> With endless love,
> Tonijean
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